Update!

Well i finally told my fiance/husband how i felt. We argued a little bit. He told me to get out, so i left, broke down and cried, he came after me and we talked some more. We're working on things still. We decided that we don't want to be with anyone else and that leaving is just running away from the problem. Which doesn't solve anything. Slowly, things are getting better. We still need to work on some things.

I feel conflicted sometimes. I don't want to leave my son, but then again i don't want him to grow up the way that i did. My parents always arguing and my mom unhappy. The only reason she stayed with my dad is because of us kids.

I don't want to loose my son or my fiance/husband. I don't want anyone else. He feels the same way. Maybe this other thing is adding to our problem. I'm not sure.

So in conclusion, things are slowly getting better. We are still talking about things. Which is good. Communication is key in any good relationship. We also decided that giving up would just be the easy way out. Just running and not dealing with the problem. So we're facing the problem head on. Whatever doesn't break us, only makes us stronger, right?

Anyways. I'll update more later!

Much love! Deuces!

Confused!

So lately I've been wondering if i should leave Mike or not. I love him, but sometimes i really hate him! I don't like how he makes me feel like everything i do is wrong, like he doesn't care about me, or like he snaps at me at the simplest things. I don't get it. I mean i know he cares about me. We're both just stressed out. Maybe when i get a job things will be better. I don't know. I'm not going to make any decisions now. I'll give it another week or two, then decide.
I asked my friend about it. She's going through the same thing with her boyfriend. They've been together as long as we have too. It's just hard sometimes. O well. Only time will tell.


Much love,
Alissa

New!

Well i guess i gave in and created an account. Now i guess i dont have to worry about posting on BBC! I guess that's all for now.